Well, if you're not living in Malaysia you may not know that we have been under the movement control order for 23 days (omg π) now. And yes, it took me 23 days of living alone with minimal human contact to finally come and fill up this page hehe. And if you're a long time [...]
Tag: mental illness
headspace | elephant in the room
It's close to 1 a.m. as I start to write this post. It may take me 3-4 days to finish this write up. I finally manage to drag myself to address my emotional well-being. This is the first few steps. I know I haven't been feeling alright since May/June, but around that time I chose [...]
it’s taking forever
I've started my writing on the website since 4 days ago. I started it with rereading all my post from writing #1 to get the idea and concept of this website back into me. However, it's taking too looooonngggg. π I'm glad I decided to document my life. Reading back all these posts and looking [...]
headspace | things that anxiety taught me

. I'm on my way to recovery, I can genuinely feel it. It's a good thing, though I'm not completely passed my anxiety/depressive phase. There's a steady progression and that's enough. π Along the way to recovery, I pick up some valuable life lessons that I may not have learnt that quickly if it's not for [...]
umbrella of darkness

By now you should notice that I like to pretend that I have readers on this blog πΒ #delusional. Oh well. What can I say. This blog, however quiet it is, is my happy place.
I'm getting sidetracked. Seriously, I have an attention span of a goldfish! Oh. I want to tell you about an event that I attended last Saturday. The event was organised by the Al Maghrib Institute. It was a talk by Yasmin Mogahed entitled "Umbrella of Darkness -- Healing through Emptiness".
headspace | masking anxiety

. Just last month have I only opened up about the anxiety and depressive symptoms that I've been having publicly to friends and family. I mean, apart from the close ones that I've opened up to earlier.Β And I find something interesting. Since I first opened up to people about my symptoms, people who knew be [...]
headspace | bad day
I had a reallyyy bad day today. . One of those days where you just have no one to go to except Allah S.W.T. One of those days where the only words that come out of me are, "O Allah, help me." . I must say, I'm handling it better though. If I were still [...]
headspace | support network for better mental health
Hey hey heyyy... Here is this month instalment of the mental health series. I think I should name the instalments so it'd be easier for people to find them, because if you're a keen reader of this space, you'd know that sometimes I write about...absolute rubbish. π€£ . Mental illness can seem a lonely place [...]
headspace | a farewell letter to anxiety
Dear Anxiety, You've been playing mind games with me for the past 4 years now and I am more than done with you. I want you gone...forever. Because of that, I am trying harder than ever to beat you. And eventually, I will. Some days are worse than others and I try to ignore [...]
she’s graduating
For the better part of the last three weeks I was struggling severely with my anxiety and depression. For those of you who know it well, it was the typical carousal of symptoms; flat affect, fatigue, socially withdrawn, hopeless, irritates, and just empty -- so empty. I woke up everyday hoping the fog had lifted. [...]