A year ago today, I hit the publish button on this blog out of desperation. I never had the intention of being a blogger. I don't think of myself as a writer -- I don't have the best grammar and you can often catch spelling errors in a post of mine. Throughout the last year, [...]
I was supposed to be asleep when I scrolled down the blogpost drafts on my phone and I saw this writing. I don't remember writing this but I reckon it'll be a good reminder for my future self of my dreams and life plans. A little back story for you new readers. I studied [...]
I almost forgot that last Tuesday I had an appointment scheduled with my psychiatrist. Thank goodness I received the notification alarm a few days before the visit. 😅 I recently stumbled across pictures in which I was smiling genuinely and being carefree. So I put them as my lock screen and home screen pictures. [...]
. I'm on my way to recovery, I can genuinely feel it. It's a good thing, though I'm not completely passed my anxiety/depressive phase. There's a steady progression and that's enough. 😊 Along the way to recovery, I pick up some valuable life lessons that I may not have learnt that quickly if it's not for [...]
By now you should notice that I like to pretend that I have readers on this blog 😂 #delusional. Oh well. What can I say. This blog, however quiet it is, is my happy place. I'm getting sidetracked. Seriously, I have an attention span of a goldfish! Oh. I want to tell you about an event that I attended last Saturday. The event was organised by the Al Maghrib Institute. It was a talk by Yasmin Mogahed entitled "Umbrella of Darkness -- Healing through Emptiness".
. Just last month have I only opened up about the anxiety and depressive symptoms that I've been having publicly to friends and family. I mean, apart from the close ones that I've opened up to earlier. And I find something interesting. Since I first opened up to people about my symptoms, people who knew be [...]
I had a reallyyy bad day today. . One of those days where you just have no one to go to except Allah S.W.T. One of those days where the only words that come out of me are, "O Allah, help me." . I must say, I'm handling it better though. If I were still [...]
Hey hey heyyy... Here is this month instalment of the mental health series. I think I should name the instalments so it'd be easier for people to find them, because if you're a keen reader of this space, you'd know that sometimes I write about...absolute rubbish. 🤣 . Mental illness can seem a lonely place [...]
Dear Anxiety, You've been playing mind games with me for the past 4 years now and I am more than done with you. I want you gone...forever. Because of that, I am trying harder than ever to beat you. And eventually, I will. Some days are worse than others and I try to ignore [...]
For the better part of the last three weeks I was struggling severely with my anxiety and depression. For those of you who know it well, it was the typical carousal of symptoms; flat affect, fatigue, socially withdrawn, hopeless, irritates, and just empty -- so empty. I woke up everyday hoping the fog had lifted. [...]
